This week our guest blogger Jasmine fights the fear of reoccuring cancer with physical exercise.
It's been a fortnight since my last blog but it feels like much longer. In fact when I saw Dave yesterday at the Prestige personal training studio it felt like I hadn't seen him in ages. I guess this is because a lot has happened in the short space of a week.
On the positive side of things I have been working very hard on a fundraising exhibition I am organising. The plans are coming along nicely and it's a nice distraction from the negative things that have happened: the death of a friend and some unusual scan results.
In the past I might have thought that it couldn't have been much worse than this. But I have definitely "evolved" as Dave says. I told him, with a look of exasperation that I was morphing into him.
But in all seriousness, Dave's influence has been nothing but positive for me over the last few months. On top of feeling fitter and healthier I feel mentally prepared to deal with whatever comes my way.
My attitude towards recurrence, my biggest fear, has changed. I am ready to fight. I do believe, and I'm sure Dave will concur, that mental and physical health go hand in hand. My physical health has improved out of sight. I can feel it in my every-day life. I am using my bad leg more and more, I pick up my friend's kids with grace and ease as people gasp and say "Jas, be careful!", and I am on the top of the score board for the handball tournament at Outside School Hours Care (don't judge me for not letting the kids win!!)
Most obviously though, is my improvement in the studio with Dave. I am now lifting 25kg on the bench press and I feel my punches getting harder during the boxing exercises. Next time I see Dave we will be doing my measurements so that we can track my improvement.
We probably should have done these earlier because I can tell I've lost a lot of weight and others have even noticed my muscle tone improving. But when I first started training I was still quite self conscious and I think Dave could tell, and so he didn't push the issue.
The only problem I'm having at training now is mind over matter. Some tiny little thought keeps popping up during weight sessions saying, "you can't lift anymore," and then I can't! Dave knows I can and it's my challenge now to stamp out the thoughts and keep going. This attitude was non existent in me six months ago. My self confidence has tripled over that time and it's showing.
I'm ready to face bikini season head on. I'm ready to fight a recurrence if it comes to that. I'm pushing hard to reach my goal to walk up the steps normally at Dave's studio by New Years. All in all...good stuff is happening.
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