"Shouldn't the world stop?"

Turns out it didn't and I just had to keep on living life in a world that had changed to me but was completely the same to others.

The nurse told us about a number of support networks but the only one I recognised was CanTeen. Yeah I mean sure it sounded fun but it just wasn't for me at the time. I kinda didn't read the flyer/booklet dooveywhacker so I thought it would be a camp where people shared feelings and I just couldn't do that, not when everything was changing. Then one day I found the pamphlet thing again for CanTeen and I thought 'Yeah sure, I'll give it a try - what's the worst thing that can happen?'

"I wanted to express my grief"

Before I joined up Daddy passed on and well that was hard on me. Once again I experienced the selfishness of wishing that the world could stop so I could express my grief, love and loss for my Daddy, but the world, being weird like that, didn't.

Turns out that I had actually made a really good decision (for once). The CanTeen camps were great and the people I have met (and yes shared feelings with!) have all been awesome. My CanTeen experience has been a life changing one and the only regret that I have is that I didn't join sooner.

CanTeen (to me) is somewhere that you can go to just get away from all the emotions that day to day living with cancer entails. You can talk to people that are almost in the same boat as you or further along with their journey. It's a wonderful place.